I have decided that I do not want to write things just because an evil thought thinks that it will sound cool....
It may be not punk.... but I want to write happy like Green Day did in Pollyanna only without a doubtful ending to the songs.
It will take some practice, I have faith I can get there when I put forth the effort.
I need to set self boundaries to stop the abuse cycle within myself.
I have been abused for decades.... it's time I stop abusing myself.
So like Green Day says.... it is time to pull up the shades.
Right now I want to cry.