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Going through a rough patch

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Latest update on my dad

Hello, GDC. For those keeping up with the never ending saga that is my dad's health and my current family situation here is the latest... He had finished treatments for throat cancer back in October. Yesterday, we went to have some scans done on my dad's lungs for a spot that noticed back in January.  The nurse practitioner came in and went over the scans with us and told us probably 10-15 times that everything looked good and that she wasn't seeing anything worth worrying about. We we

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Here's the latest on my family

Hello, fellow GDCers. Thanks for all of the well wishes through all of this craziness with my dad. The latest on my dad is that he will have to go through chemo and radiation starting on September 11th. Surgery was unable to remove all of the cancer, so the doctors now want to do radiation to remove the last of it which they believe they can do. They had to remove one of his jugular veins during the surgery as well as a muscle from his neck to his shoulder that has now limited the ability o

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New update on my dad and it's very complicated

Hey, everyone. Here's the latest with my dad and it's a very, very complicated situation. My dad's cancer is just in the lymph nodes in his neck. He will be having surgery at the Cleveland Clinic Monday morning and the hope is to remove all of the cancer through surgery. However, here's where our lives get really fucked up. The latest biopsy confirmed that my dad's cancer was caused by HPV to which my dad dropped the bombshell on our family by confessing that he had an affair 17 y

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JardyOfSuburbia

Update on my dad

Hey, everyone. Just wanted to provide those of you who were reaching out to me and my family an update on my dad's health. We learned today that he does in fact have cancer again even after being labeled "cured". Where the cancer is in we don't know yet until a PET scan is done sometime here soon (date TBA). The hope is that this cancer is just at his one lymph node and they can remove it surgically. The surgery will be done at the Cleveland Clinic where both my sister and brother-in-l

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JardyOfSuburbia

So, today fucking sucked

Fuck today. Five years ago, my dad was diagnosed with Stage 4 throat cancer after never smoking a single cigarette in his life. The cancer was treatable and he came out on top of it after a few months of chemo and radiation. Ever since then he's regularly been checked for cancer and everything's been clean for years. They labeled him cured. Well, after having a sore neck for about a month or so, my dad went to have a biopsy done today and the initial diagnosis is cancer. Fuck. Why

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What's my favorite Green Day song?

It’s a question that’s plagued me since I became a fan back in 2004. People ask me all the time and my answer fluctuates as I continue to grow. As I begin to pack for a weekend filled with fellow Idiots, I decided to attempt to tackle this question and finally pinpoint my answer. For starters, my jump into fandom was a canon ball from the high dive. There was no dipping of my foot to check the water temperature. I plunged into this. For my 15th birthday, my parents bought me their enti

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Why should my fun have to end?: My weekend with Green Day (Finished)

I was all set to write this. I had the general flow of everything in my head and was ready to tackle this recap of my amazing weekend. And then Billie posted this message to Instagram. "dear you I can't express enough how much love is in my heart for all of you in our green day community. for me to try to put it into words almost feels awkward. sometimes I don't always like to use the word "fan". I think I can speak on behalf of me mike and Tre when I call you family or community. Beca

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Why I need to be at this Green Day concert in Cleveland

Wednesday morning, I got out of the shower and had two missed calls and a voicemail from my brother. What in the hell could I have possibly missed in the 15 minutes I was in the shower that warranted a voicemail? I picked up my phone to listen. "ARE YOU FREAKING OUT? DON'T FREAK OUT. YOU'RE PROBABLY FREAKING OUT. ARE YOU FREAKING OUT?" What in the hell could he be talking about? I figured it had to be Green Day related. I called him back while getting on my laptop and that's when I saw t

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JardyOfSuburbia

"I can't move on and I can't stay the same."

Dear Kayla Marie, This is a letter I’ve been thinking about writing for a few months now and it’s certainly the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write. From the very first day we met in class a few years ago I began to fall in love with you. When I found out you had a boyfriend, I did the only thing I’ve known how to do when it comes to women in my life…wait. By waiting, I got to learn so much about you. We didn’t rush into anything, we didn’t have a mistake one night and we didn’t do anyt

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Do I send this letter to the one I love? (Seeking feedback)

You want to know the moment where I really fell for you? It was when we were first lying in bed at your apartment And we locked onto each other’s eyes And held that look for what felt like hours Every defense in my body began to melt And love began to seep through my skin Until the feelings spread quicker than a virus And I was totally smitten What I wouldn’t give to give you one more kiss Right on your forehead It’s happened in my dreams for months now Where you lean in and pla

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JardyOfSuburbia

I still love you

I can't explain why But it's worth a try The thoughts that go on behind my eyes Emotions so deep they make me want to cry You are the only one I've ever cared for You've stripped me down all the way to my core Your beautiful, brown eyes pierced my every pore All these feelings inside of me are waging a war Between my heart and my mind I guess it's true that love is blind And now I'm stuck in this bind There's no way out if I have to leave you behind I love your soul Getting

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JardyOfSuburbia

American Idiot a decade later: What it meant to me then and what it still means to me today (Part Two)

So, now I'm 23. And it will be 10 years this September since the album's release. Over the past decade the album continues to grow on me on much more personal levels. When I first heard it I just thought it was cool to hate George W. Bush, but without any real reason to. American Idiot opened me up to the wrongdoings of American politics and not just one party specifically. It made me question what was going on or at least pay attention to what was happening around me. Musically, Americ

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JardyOfSuburbia

American Idiot a decade later: What it meant to me then and what it still means to me today (Part One)

August 31st, 2004. Green Day debuts the first single from its new rock-opera American Idiot. The title-track to the massive album will change Green Day's career for the second time in the band's history. It made an impact to millions of listeners including one 13-year-old boy who was searching for an identity in those horrible pubescent, adolescent years. Remember when VH1 and MTV showed music videos? Every morning before I would leave for school I'd watch these two channels for my latest mu

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JardyOfSuburbia

Letter for my brother's soon-to-be-child

Brittany, you asked for a pep talk for Baby J, so here it goes. Baby J, it's time for you to come into this world now. Your mother has carried you in her for long enough and we are all eagerly awaiting your arrival. Unfortunately, your first few moments on this planet will be broadcast to the masses through social media. That's sort of the world we live in now. I'm sure you will have a Facebook page when you are three. I'll say this. I can understand why you may want to stay in there...fre

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JardyOfSuburbia

A drunken rambling for the friend I love that I miss

A restful night of sleep is all I want But then you show up in my dreams And your kisses come to haunt And I wake up tearing at the seams My feelings for you grow like a cancer I hate that we don’t even speak There is no easy answer The long days have turned to weeks Wish I could go back and undo the act The act that made you hate me My actions made you feel like I attacked I never wanted to flee You still talk to my mom Why can’t you talk to me? Your actions turned me int

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JardyOfSuburbia

Moving on

You thanked me for being so patient But now that patience has ran thin I don’t feel right in my own skin I feel like every scenario is a no-win I said I’d never leave I wore your troubles on my sleeve Carried the weight of your shit All I did was crumble and we split You held my face as I cried Said, “you can’t even call me your girlfriend, but I can see a future with you” And my watery eyes have dried And I can picture you as my bride Could you see me as your groom? Carryi

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JardyOfSuburbia

I was there (Not the Green Day song)

I was there When you needed to escape the drama I was there When you were upset with your mama I was there When you thought about checking yourself in I was there When you needed someone to make you grin I was there When you slit your wrists I was there When you needed to know you deserve to exist I was there When you were at your worst I was there When all of your rage would burst I was there When you needed to be held tight I was there When everything would be OK just for th

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JardyOfSuburbia

Someone that I loved

You were someone that I loved From the day we met A girl that I’d always think of The one I could talk to and not break a sweat The way we used to gaze in each other’s eyes How we could see into each other’s souls Wipe away the sorrowful cries I always hoped we’d come together whole You knew how much I wanted you Yet you still kept coming around Needed to get in your daily screw Brought me up just to let me down I was in it for the long haul You were just exploring Threw m

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JardyOfSuburbia

Poem for my ex

Stuck in this stupid rut All I look forward to is watching smut I feel like a lost and wandering mutt Walking around, just me and my strut I think I have some issues going on in my head Sometimes I wish I was dead Others I wish you were here to occupy my bed Even though you were the one that fled So you posted a photo of your new guy I'd love nothing more than for him to die Then you could feel alone and ask why? Or would you just sit around and get high? I can't wait to see

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