I've woken up a little off having smoked plenty of times. Just a little slower than usual. Normally wears off after water and some food.
I'm really glad I don't smoke as much now - only once every few months. Even just twice or three times a week, in hindsight, I got lazy and demotivated, and just just a bit slower all-round. It does make me wonder just how safe it is regularly. It can't be smoked as regularly as alcohol can be drank and not end up with worse effects on the body and mind. Lil, I'd really say cut it out to once a month max if you go to you, cause I can see you going the other way. Especially cause you've got a ~ predilection for mental health problems ~ which, by the way, it 100% makes worse in every single way. At uni it's too easy to go too deep. Every single person I know who has ever smoked weed every single day for a longer period than a couple of weeks of their lives has ended up in a far shitter life position than everyone else around them. I do love a smoke, it's a fucking nice thing to do once in a while, but you're just kidding yourself if it's more regularly. Especially if it's on your own regularly. That is when you simply need to stop, cause it's pure escapism.
yeah i totally understand your point man, i've been feeling that way myself recently. i've been scaling it back over the past few weeks and trying to cut down, but i recently came to terms with the fact that i'm not neurotypical - whole other story - and i think that affects how i respond to weed to be honest. i realise this will sound daft but even though i have a predilection for mental health issues, weed quiets a lot of them - it calms down my anxiety loads, i can concentrate better, and i haven't had anywhere near as many disturbing dreams or nightmares since i started smoking regularly (whereas before it'd be five nights a week i'd wake up sweating at daft o'clock and be panicking too much to get back to sleep). smoking weed doesn't affect my life negatively nearly as much as out of control anxiety does, so i find in that way it helps me, but as i say i'm scaling back at the moment cause college has got a bit more intense. on the flip side though i've found my work in certain subjects/areas is better if i do it high. i know that sounds stupid and like i'm trying to justify it but i can concentrate better and i get much more into a task if i have half a spliff beforehand - especially with english lit, my analysis comes along leaps and bounds if i'm a little high. i don't go to college high or anything though because i'm not an idiot, i mostly smoke in the evenings now and hardly ever when i'm alone unless i can't sleep. it's a social thing for me, even if i'm only with one person i get very nervous and anxious and weed relaxes it. i am a little bit dependent, i'm aware of that, but there's no personality change between being high and not being high (i.e. moody when i can't have a joint) - according to most of my friends and family. but yeah my aim for the summer is to leave it alone a little bit and use it on more of a reward system or if my anxiety/depression is playing up and fucking with me. i don't even have my own dealer so it shouldn't be too hard. plus it's a fucking expensive habit.
whoops i accidentally wrote an essay.
Edited by johndorkian, 01 July 2014 - 02:53 PM.