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That One Bad Moment

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Sitting on a chair

with an empty mind

feeling nothing

cos you don't know

what to feel

It's so empty inside

but on the same time

your head's so full

-full of sadness

no one'd ever understand

Something's broken

but not just a bone

something's broken inside

something inside your head

something inside your heart

It was the moment you realized

that your dreams will never come true

It was the moment you realized

that you have to give up on your hobby somewhen

It was the moment you realized

that you have to let go

It was the moment you realized

that everything has an end

Yeah it was the moment you realized

that your life isn't always fair

It was the moment that changed your life

You're waiting

waiting for nothing

or maybe for a better time?

You don't know

and you don't care

You hear the clock ticking

it feels like

there's a time bomb

inside your head

and you can't stop it

You sit there

alone on a chair

while the world doesn't care

but you don't care

about the world

It was the moment you realized

that your dreams will never come true

It was the moment you realized

that you have to give up on your hobby somewhen

It was the moment you realized

that you have to let go

It was the moment you realized

that everything has an end

Yeah it was the moment you realized

that your life isn't always fair

It was the moment that changed your life

You're sitting there

with thousand questions

none will ever be answered

but you don't mind

cos you know that

Looking back

into the past

it makes you cry

and you start asking

those thousand questions again

Why is this world

so unfair?

Why does it always happen to me?

I'll never know...

It was the moment you realized

that your dreams will never come true

It was the moment you realized

that you have to give up on your hobby somewhen

It was the moment you realized

that you have to let go

It was the moment you realized

that everything has an end

Yeah it was the moment you realized

that your life isn't always fair

It was the moment that changed your life

I wrote that song after I broke my collarbone for the 2nd time. I don't remember whether it was before my operation or after, but what I remember is that I felt like shit, cos I couldn't do anything and due to the fact that it's already the second time that I broke my collarbone I wasn't sure whether I'd ever be as good at ice hockey as I've been before. After I showed that song to my friend, and drummer of our band, Jenny, she asked me whether I wanna stop with hockey, cos I wrote "It's the moment you realized that you have to give up with your hobby somewhen" and stuff that would fit to that theory. My answer was "No.". I didn't want to stop with hockey, I just couldn't play for such a long time and that must be kind of the feeling that you get when you stop with your hobby. Also I broke my collarbone 2 times in a row and understood that it can end easier than I thought. But the song isn't all about hockey, it's simply about everything in life, how you somewhen have to give up on things or your biggest dreams, have to let go people you loved for whatever reason and yeah also your hobby which for me is hockey but also playing guitar. Okay, I didn't think I have to stop playing guitar somewhen, but I knew I couldn't play it for a long time cos of my injury.

At that time I was totally depressed and the feeling I'm describing in the song is hard to explain, but I try to...hope you understand what I mean xD

It was like I was so sad and so depressed that I cried a lot, my head felt like exploding and there was so much in my mind, so much that I felt unhappy about, but at the same time I was totally numb and didn't feel a thing and about a lot of things I didn't care. I guess it was kinda like it got too much so that I felt numb. I then didn't think about why I felt depressed anymore (while before I thought about every little detail) but just that I felt depressed and was just crying cos of that, but also was kinda numb. I can't explain it...it was weird...

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