Honestly, I kind of need some advice and I figured sharing my thoughts on this might help someone else, I don't know. But, here goes nothing. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do when I "grow up," whenever that is. When we were kids, we were ingrained with this thought of needing to know from day one what our future plans are and how to achieve it through college and higher education.
Now, when you peel back that bullshit logic, you get kids like me that are in their 20s and terrified because I still have no idea what the hell I'm doing let alone what my purpose in this life is. I have no clue what I'd like to do for 50+ years so I can retire and die.
None of my interests or hobbies seem to connect to a career like it does for other people. Spending hundreds of thousands of dollars I don't have on classes I don't like to get a degree I might not use turns me off. It's far too risky.
I feel like a failure and I feel guilty for not going into college because my grandma acts like I'm the worst thing alive because of it. My mother and I have associates degrees in our respective fields and work at a pizza place together; we are not the favorites. However, my mother's sister and my brother both have bachelor's degrees in their fields and are the apples of my grandma's eyes. I seek approval, yet want to carve my own path. So I reach an impasse that leaves me feeling talentless, worthless, and lost.
Anyone else feel this way? The American education system is fucked up and expensive.