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The Truth (I'm Hideous)

Hi guys! I know I haven't been online in a bit, but I finally have some time to come online in between working four jobs and going through my move to the Unites States.  There is something I just wanted to vent about because it is something that is constantly on my mind, and I feel like writing about it would be therapeutic. There's no better place to do this than on my favourite website.     So, the truth: I never noticed how repulsive I am until recently. In 2016/2017, I wa

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Ups and Downs

This year has been a rocky one for me, hence my absence here on GDC. I still miss you all and lurk when I can. I figured I'd give you all an update if you're interested. Ricki passed away on April 14th, and I've cried every single day since then. For those of you who don't know, Ricki was my cat who was almost twenty-two years old. He was my best friend and got me through so much in my life. To live through his legacy, I've created a non-profit to raise funds for senior pets in need of m

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I'm not Dead (Yet)

Hi all. I just wanted to come on here because I haven't posted in a while!   I have been inactive online due to multiple things...here are some: I have been incredibly ill since September 17th. I was admitted to hospital for sixteen days and am still ill. I was told everything in the book; that I'm allergic to mushrooms, that I'm pregnant, that it's more kidney issues, kidney stones (which I had before, it wasn't that pain), etc. I have a fischer on my colon which is over 2" in l

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Billie Joe Conspiracy Theories

Hi all, I wrote a new article for my Her Campus page! Check it out if you'd like. http://www.hercampus.com/school/uwindsor/billie-joe-armstrong-conspiracy-theories

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10 Reasons Why Green Day is Awesome as Fuck

Hey all! I wrote my newest article for HerCampus and it is all about Green Day! I would really appreciate it very much if you guys could check it out. If there are any errors in information, please let me know. @Todd luckily corrected a lot for me already. I got some of my info from sources that are not 100% reliable so if I could be corrected, it would be great. I also had a graduate student edit this, so I hope there are no grammatical issues.    http://www.hercampus.com/school/uwind

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An Update on Mimi

I'm sure you all have seen my very limited posts on here. I am always reading the boards when I can, but I haven't contributed much...mainly due to busyness, but also because I've been up and down lately. I'm sure some people may not care for an update, but I am friends with many people on this site, so I just wanted to let everyone know what's up with me and what I've done while I've been less active on here.   I got into the professional years of Social Work and Disability Studies at my

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It Wasn't Just Billie Joe's Birthday...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BESTEST BUNNY A GIRL COULD EVER ASK FOR!!!  Happy 2nd birthday to my loveable bunny, Jack! Although you can't read this or understand the concept of a birthday, I hope I was able to give you the greatest birthday party any rabbit has ever had! In the year and a half I've had you in my life, I have been blessed with your quirks, adorableness, and unconditional love. You made my lifelong dream of having a bunny come true the day you literally hopped into my life! I am th

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How I Imagined You

I didn't know what to call this, but I'm bored and have wanted to do this ever since I saw the old Picture Thread.     I wanted to do this thing where like, once a week or whatever, everyone decides on a member or something and I'll describe/draw how I actually imagined them? I hope I explained it right. We did it on an old forum before and it was super fun (we meaning my friends and I) and it was interesting to see/read what some people thought I looked like. Plus, I have imagine

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20 Lessons Learned in 2015

I really wanted to write this note and publish it on the last day of 2015, but I honestly think that this is so important to sit down and type out now while I have the worlds to express what I’d like to say.   On the last day of 2014, I made a promise to myself that 2015 would be the year of self discovery, self growth, the pursuit to happiness, and, of course, #MakeTheSnip2015. I am by no means looking for sympathy, but the past few years prior were difficult for me; adjusting to Universit

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I'm Yours

I want to be the person who never leaves your mind. I want to be the dream that helps you unwind. I want to be that lingering thought that keeps you up at 4AM on a school night. I want to be the person who makes your smile so bright. I want to be the person your heart aches to hold. I want to be someone you'll even love when we're old. I want to be the person you hope to run into in public. I want to be the someone who gives you butterflies in your stomach. I want you to love every flaw on my fa

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no spark

no spark   where did the fire go? i don't feel it in my heart and can't seem to find it in my soul. the passion is extinguished  but foggy memories play in spurts throughout my nights. i reach for them, try to take them back but as my finger tips brush them, they fade away and i know i can never have them again. i hope for the fire to come back and to grow like it once did but it isn't and instead I'm stranded in the ashes and memories from better days  praying for the spark to come 

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jessee

i told you that i felt really sad so you let me braid your hair and line your eyes with black ink just to make me smile and laugh   i told you that i felt really bad so you bought me vegetable soup from the shop for $4.25, which was all you had   i told you that i hate myself you took me to the park and played me songs on your guitar  just so i could love myself   i told you that i felt alone you drove two hours in a storm just to watch tv at my home   i told you that i miss you and you called m

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The Stars Keep On Calling my Name (My exciting independent trip)

So this weekend I went on a super exciting trip and saw my future husband (loooool). I also got to do shit for myself for once so that felt awesome! So on Friday, my mum drove me to the train station and I'm happy I did tell her an hour earlier because we were really cutting it close. When I got on the train I was delighted to see someone from my high school that I used to talk to a lot on the train too, so we talked for a bit until she had to get off of the train. I was happy I had someone for

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misela

misela i miss who you used to be i miss who you were the kind heart who was once so selfless is now so calloused and cold and the helping hands which were always reaching out are now crossed at your chest always a pessimist, but always providing light in the darkest of times your innocent and pure heart ignited a hope for good in humanity  but now you are bitter and hurtful i miss how talented and down to earth you once were why were you so afraid to be yourself when you were so lovely? you were

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Question About Downloading Music

Okay. I know this is going to sound extremely stupid, but I honestly have never used anything to download music besides iTunes in my life. I guess I've seen how Limewire worked when I was in grade six, but that was so long ago and I don't think that's even a thing anymore. Anyways, on iTunes I bought this album in 2007 called Grand Animals by Robbers on High Street. It's one of my all time favourite albums, and I have no idea why, but the album suddenly disappeared off of my own library and

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i dream of you

oh night sky the moon sparkles in my eye blanket me to sleep though my pillow stars may weep paint drips from my head as i am dreaming in my bed it leaks a portrait of you and i longing to project in the night sky hoping you could look up and see that i always dream of you and me

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amy

god sent a spirit from heaven to me he said, "child, do not flee" i stood cold my heart raced at an alarming pace he told me, "don't be afraid" he whispered god loved me and smiled with glee i stuttered, "what about my family?" he laughed and took my hand and lifted me off of the land he said, "your family will understand" we flew up to heaven the spirit and me i caught a clear view of the sea i asked the spirit if he knew that sea "you floated off there"

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in the forest you built a well will you throw me inside? you yell and you throw things a fire burns in your eyes i try to find a safe place to hide. my heart beats i can’t sleep i can’t seem to eat would you harm me? please, don’t harm me

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celina

through the window i saw your eyes i knew you were hurting inside in the sunlight i saw your face i knew you were burning inside in the backyard i saw you lay i knew this wasn't your day in the office i saw you try i knew you were breaking inside holding your hand i felt your grasp i knew you were draining inside in the darkness i hear you cry i know you're dying inside

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Ceroes and Hunts

Enjoy. EDIT: A major error on my part. I am not sure if it was Emilie, but I believe Emilie preferred being addressed with them/their/they pronouns...I believe I forgot about this while filming and I am terribly sorry. I honestly mean no disrespect. I think you had removed it form your signature so I forgot.

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What the Fuck is Wrong with Me?

I just want to say that if you're not in the mood to read about someone ranting about their life, or if you're still super hyped about the House of Blues show from yesterday and don't want your mood brought down, I highly suggest you just don't read this if you ended up clicking it. I don't want to upset/annoy more people. It sucks how no matter how many times I try to make this blogpost state exactly what my head is thinking, I can never do it. When I'm driving to work or taking note

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Philosophical Discussion #1

Hi guys! I couldn't seem to find a philosophy thread anywhere and I love anything philosophical. If there is one, could someone please link me it? And if there isn't one, would anyone be up for/like to start a thread called something like 'Philosophical Stuff' or even have a club for it? I've already made two threads since I started posting again (one which wasn't serious though) so I would feel weird making another, especially if it isn't allowed. Anyhow, I am almost done my philosophy pape

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Brain Vomit

If you don't like rants, I suggest you don't read this. It's the first day back to school, and my hands have already broken out into hives, and I've had three nosebleeds. How delicious. This semester seems like it's going to be stressful. I have only had one class today and I'm currently taking a break form working on a paper which is due on March 26th...if I have to start a paper this early, that should tell you how time consuming this paper is. On top of that, none of my books (

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"The Political Lesbian"

Okay, so this is my first blog post, I guess. I would do some form of formal introduction, but in my opinion, there is no way for me to introduce myself without seeming incredibly pretentious...so, we'll just start off with this. The programme in which I am enrolled in at University requires me to learn about a lot of things like marginalization, oppression, political policies, counselling, etc. Although we have to learn about a lot of topics, there are still females in my classes who have

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