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5/22 and 5/23

Okay so I was one of the lucky few to have gotten tickets to The Longshot. Twice.  The first ticket was actually bought by my partner and I gave him my information because I needed just one ticket for myself. The second ticket happened Tuesday afternoon on the line as I was waiting to get in. Let's recap with Tuesday 5/22: Get up at 6:00 AM and I’m at the venue at 7:30 AM There’s six people in front of me which was surprising but this is also the fact it was raining on and off today (and the fact it’s not technically Green Day despite Billie being the front man and Jeff being there too) People behind me start showing up sporadically between 11 AM and onward. There wasn’t 20 people around until about 3 PM? Maybe even later? Load in happens with the crew Throughout load in, we get a notification that they released 30 tickets for that night and Wednesday shows. I get a Wednesday ticket.  Black car pulls up about a hour after. Billie is the first to come out. An unintelligible yell comes out my mouth but also everyone on line is screaming too.  Side note: Actually very good looking human being and the fluff is real. Soundcheck happens and then Jeff comes out but walks down the block and away from us.  Billie comes out and a few people in front of me are calmly and quietly asking for photos (and people slowly begin to notice). So I made myself seen by Billie and I said something of the fact “I’ve been here since 7:30 AM may I please have a photo?” And we did make eye contact and mini acknowledge that I was to be next. Then this woman who was a few people away shoves me and goes underneath the sanction rope and then everyone starts swarming and pushing him more to his car. And then he says he’s sorry he can’t take any more photos because he has to get laundry.  Going to be bitter for a while about it.  ANYWAYS Get inside and I’m front row and made myself go in between Billie and Jeff because center was out of the question and so was the far side.  Opener was The Trashbags and they were…decent. I couldn’t hear much because I became a certified adult and brought earplugs because I knew I would wind up next to a speaker. The lead singer kept weaving in and out of the crowd during every song. Which was cool because not a lot do that and he got the party going. Longshot gets set up and my heart begins pounding because it hit me I am arms length away from Billie Joe fucking Armstrong.  They were incredible live. A lot of bouncing. My side of the stage wasn’t rowdy and we had a bit of elbow room in the front row too. There were a few people in the front who weren’t jumping around. And there was this older woman who had her arm out blocking a small area where someone could stand and also her other arm holding on to her kids and her feet were literally on the amp. I was like “…this is not the right show for you, lady.”  He skipped over Happiness and we called him out on it. After a few songs, my arm was covering Billie’s set list and he bent down to look and I had to move my arm away and then he looks right into my eyes and sticks his tongue out at me. So I did it right back and then he laughed and then I freaked.  Got a pick at the end of the show when there was one on stage and this other kid behind me lunged for it too but my hand was quicker.  I did leave when it ended because exhausted and also because I was there for almost 17 hours with a mini nap now and then. Also it was a literal sauna in the room. Recap of Wednesday 5/23: Made it a point to not be there as early because tiredness and also that I had an interview at 1 PM and I didn’t want to leave stuff there and come back and then see it leave. Get to the venue at around 2:30 and we have about 20 people in front of me. Tuesday it was pouring rain and a bit colder. And Wednesday it was bright and sunny and warm. Met up with Anna from the Green Day group we had on here ages ago and on Twitter.  Made friends with a few people on line too The band doesn’t do soundcheck which was…odd. Or didn’t show up to the venue at all until after we got in.  I get second row and get between Jeff and Billie again but people were taking up a lot more space so the amp was my friend. Crowd was a lot more rowdy. A lot of pushing and shoving and jumping on all sides. Thought I was going to merge with the amp.  Caught Jeff’s attention a few times WILD ONE LIVE akjdsfhkldsjhgljkhdsjkahgdjklas I will say Dos was my least favorite album of the Trilogy with Tre being my favorite. But Wild One is one of the songs I genuinely loved on it.  The dork that is Billie had someone in the front hold the lyrics on a piece of paper. We wait around and head outside and it takes about a hour and Jeff comes by. He does a few autographs and I managed a selfie with him. I thanked him for the show and hope he has a great remainder of the tour. He says it was great having you on his side of the stage because I was active and responsive.  About a half hour later, I see Adrienne Armstrong and oh my god. There are people I do get starstruck for. I did not realize she would be one of them Her hair was pulled up in a high pony tail. She had minimal makeup on with black eyeliner/mascara and a red lip and she looked fucking STUNNING. Just such a beautiful woman that made me go “…oh my god.” Not only that but she has this aura about her that is welcoming and also you know she’s someone and want to be around her.  I wish I could have told her she looked amazing and to thank her for putting up with the fans and that she deserves all good things And then Billie comes out a moment after her Now I will say a selfie with Billie is always goals and the dream. But the literal dream DREAM is for him to write down on a piece of paper “Better Thank Your Lucky Stars” from Waiting and it would be my next tattoo.  Sadly…either didn’t happen.  I didn’t want to scream and rush him but everyone did even though he said something among the lines of “selfies take too long and I will sign” I asked about the lyric but he was getting rushed away by other fans and also his bodyguards saying he has to go. And I didn’t want to follow him down the block but fuck I wanted to do so because it’s a so close and yet so fucking far away.  I am not going to the Brooklyn show unless I do get a ticket and even then, I did say I would pick up a shift at work and money is needed to me because of other things. I know my friend Caitlyn will be going so I may ask her if she can somehow get the lyric for me.  Despite those so close moments, it was two of the best nights ever and two of the best shows I’ve been to. 

If I Could

If I could run my fingers through your dark hair, I would. Have my fingers twist and turn the strands gently or roughly, whatever you desire. Just the texture beneath the fingertips would be enough. If I could stare into your blue eyes, I would. I'd get lost in them within moments as I try to see what you're thinking. The secret desire I hold is you'd stare right back into my eyes. If I could have you in my arms, I would. Whether on the couch or on the bed. Just an area we feel the most comfortable in and to never move again. If I could kiss you right now, I would. I never kissed anyone before. You are the first one I actually want to in such a long time. If I could be with you at this moment in time, I would. It would be the quickest and fastest decision of my life just to spend more time with you. I hope that you feel the same way about me despite the doubts I have that may linger. And that maybe if you do, these "if I could" wishes will be a reality.




A Something...Unpredictable and Unforgettable Time of My Life

So I got up around 7:10 in the morning which is normally the time I usually get up to go to my morning classes at 9. I first do my hair and I use this hair chalk thing (Which doesn't stay at all) and pull it back into a pony tail and then I get dressed. I triple check to make sure I have everything: bag with snacks, money, ID, receipt for tickets, camera, phone. I was out the door by 7:30 because I had to grab breakfast and the bus stop is about 30 feet away from the store. I go get breakfast, grab an extra bottle of water, and I get on the 8:00 AM bus bound to the Port Authority. I don't eat my breakfast but, I do have the orange juice with it (Guess it was nerves and the fact this was my first time going into New York City and even Brooklyn all by myself). Get off the bus, walk down 42nd street to the subway and I only had to wait 2-3 minutes before it came to bring me to Brooklyn. I wasn't sure why but, I thought it was a direct stop to Brooklyn and not stopping in between and this creepy old guy was asking me and I told him I had to get to the center and he said sit down, you won't get there for another 10 minutes. And the last time I was on the subway, I got sick. I guess it was because it was summer and I barely ate (I had a snack of oreos or something a few hours before) so I was a bit nervous about getting sick but thankfully I didn't. I get to the stop, I walk out, and the Barclays Center is right there: (Note: This photo isn't exactly from the subway stop, I was wandering around later that day and this was the photo I took) I begin to see where people were lining up and it was around 9 AM. I see there's a few people with blankets and sleeping bags and immediately I thought "I'm too late". But I counted and it was only about 30 people in front of me so I got my spot and was talking to the group in the front, saying it was my first Green Day concert, and how they were just in the one in Philly and got here and all that. By around 10, there was about 10-15 people behind me and I had to let Meredith, friend I met on here with the GDF, know about the line situation. She didn't get there until around 1 but, I made sure I kept here and Jess a place in line. It went a bit...quick at some points. It was fucking freezing though. Temperature wise it wasn't bad but the wind made it a good 10 degrees colder than it seemed. I really didn't want to take my heavy jacket considering I was going to be in the pit so I wore my blouse with a tank underneath and my swimming track jacket. I should have worn heavier socks as well. Anyways, on the line was pretty cool. I was able to go walk around and even got tea from Dunkin Donuts and a chocolate frosted donut with sprinkles (And no, I did not snort the sprinkles. Much as Tre Cool does, not for me) and had my other snacks, water, and Gatorade that I brought with me. Not only that, I also was talking to quite a few other people and we sort of did a whole "I'll wait your spot, you wait mine" bit. It was confusing though because people who were in front were holding spots for five other people in their group who were coming last minute and that wasn't fair for those who were waiting the last nine hours out there to be cut :| Anyways, doors opened at seven and we went running to the pit. Unfortunately, I didn't get actual barrier I got the row behind (Which sucked a bit because I couldn't see well with people who were about 6 foot in front of me. And I tried to be nice at least and ask to be in front or move to the side and they said no/completely ignored me). Best Coast came on and they were...alright. Lyrics were good, the music in general sounded repetitive. And then when it was 9:00 PM, Bohemian Rhapsody came on and everyone, I mean everyone, sang along to it. And then Blitzkrieg Bop by the Ramones and the Drunk Bunny appeared. I felt my heart pounding and my stomach flipping slightly as the theme from "The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly" played and Green Day stepped out on stage. State of shock doesn't describe that feeling. Overview: Sounded better live than videos, looked better live, got my hair pulled so many times, almost fell to the ground, got elbowed in the lip, got pushed a good two rows back, lost Meredith and Jess, lost my Gryffindor hat, set list was what I sort of expected because they played sort of the same songs at the other shows but alter a few here and there, they played Knowledge which was surprising (I was screaming for Waiting but couldn't hear/see me), lots of shoving and moshing, and the concert ended a bit early. I'd do this all again in a heart beat. Just...gotta aim for the barrier more which means going earlier and perhaps make buddy buddy with a person who is 6 foot and could protect/surround me and maybe make me able to see.




35 Days

I'm seeing Green Day in 35 days I'll be in the same exact room as a band I loved for over 12 years, a band I consider to be heroes. And it hasn't hit me yet that I'm seeing them. I haven't completely freaked out or fan girled or cried over the fact I'll be seeing Green Day for the first time I mean yeah when I first bought the tickets in September, I did scream a bit but then nothing else I'm not sure when it will hit me. It could hit me tomorrow. It could hit me when I'm waiting in line for eight hours to get in the center It could hit me when the opening act is on stage Hell, it could hit me when I see them in person when they step on stage It will probably be the last one more or less. Because I won't be seeing them from a gif off of tumblr, or a video off of youtube, or a poster on my wall or a picture on GDA or in a magazine. I'll be seeing them in...real life. And the dream of seeing them will become a reality and all bets will be off.



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