QUOTE(Relavar @ Oct 3 2007, 03:12 AM)

I ask myself that very question every single day, knowing whatever I do, It will never be good enough.
And to the rest of what you said, doesn't make any sense.
Why would a god just [well first off, I don't even think it's free will] let us go off and do whatever we want, and then fix it later, but in the meantime, everybody is to perish?
Let alone he knows whats going to happen anyway, so it's like, his story.
I still do not understand how we are not puppets in his story, if he is all knowing to everything that is going to occur.
He is in control of this book, from my understanding.
I understand where you're going. I know the other side of the story but it's hard to explain. Ive only been a christian for 9 months now and I would hate it if I put more doubt into you because of my weak explanation. I could always ask my pastor or another leader if you want me to...
I was just reading the Bible and doing some study for you kinda. Because you think you get nothing from God at all. You want what others get. You're in doubt.
Can I say you find it difficult to have faith in God? Let me say this:
If you don't believe someone, it means you think that he is a liar. The Bible says that those who dont believe God accuse Him of lying.
You're really in need of more faith on this point. The key that unlocks the door of salvation is faith. Without faith, we cannot please God. Try establishing any sort of friendship without faith. Walk up to a woman and introduce yourself. When she tells you her name, say: "I dont believe you" . Watch her reaction. When she tells you where she works, say that you dont believe that either. Carry on like that for a while, and before long you may be nursing a black eye. Your lack of faith in her is a strong insinuation that she is a liar.
If she, a mere mortal, feels insulted by your lack of faith in her word, how much more do unbelievers insult Almighty God by refusing to believe His Word. In doing so, they are saying that God isnt worth trusting and that He is a liar and a deceiver. If a meaningfull human relationship cant be established without faith, what sort of relationship could we expect to have with God, if by our unbelief we continue to call Him a liar?
You know, when I accepted Jesus, I was also just standing in church in unbelieve. Everything was so unreal. Everyone was so going up in worship. And I experienced nothing at all. Untill there was a point that I knew I needed help no matter what and I told myself to go for it. I made the DECISION to focus completely on God. I made the CHOICE not to doubt His promise and His Word. I tried to contact Him during worship, I tried with praying. I felt nothing.
But the more I did it, the more familiar I got with it. It became normal to surrender and to talk to God, even though I often felt like nothing was happening and it was all for nothing. Yes I doubted too. I first found it stupid that I even gave my live to Christ. Untill I started to get really serious. At some international worship conferance we went to, it was the first time I lifted my hand to Him, closed my eyes and I felt contact. After that I still had and still have times I think He's not here. But I know in faith he is. But now more and more, at church, in my bedroom when im playing my music or when Im praying, I always lift my hands up, close my eyes and Im only worschipping. Nothing else in the world matters then. No obligations, no deadlines, no loneliness, no problems. When I do, I often feel energy through my body. I know the Holy Spirit is working in me because I let him. I also once fell when pastor prayed for me and woke up maybe a minute later.
Maybe it seems to you that you want to experience that feeling too and you waited for it so long already and you tried everything. But now examine yourself. Have you completely surrendered? Are there no doubts? Is it by own choice or are you forcing yourself because you just want to feel something? Maybe there's the burden between you and God.